I don’t like my job and it frustrates me to the point of tears sometimes. Late last year, I cried at work three times in a week. Each time I felt the tears a-comin’, I hightailed it to my hiding spot until I calmed down.
However, this last week I cried a big, ugly, can’t breath cry. In my manager’s office. In front of two of my managers.
I’m not sure where it came from (I’m quick to blame PMS because it’s easy) and eventually I was just crying because I was crying in my manager’s office. I know I didn’t explain myself nearly as well as I would have liked, so now I feel like an overly emotional little girl (hello, not helping the “little one” nickname!).
Once it was over, I had to walk from her office through a hallway of other offices that sometimes can be a ghost town, but of course at this point was crawling with managers. All day long people were asking me if I was okay and being an overly emotional girly girl that day, it just made me want to cry again.
All I could think of was that I’m doomed at work now. You’re just not supposed to cry at work. Can I overcome it? My mom tried to make me feel better saying that it showed how much I care. Truth is I don’t, but if that’s the illusion it gives, I suppose I’ll go with it.
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