On Wednesday I had my job interview for the family that was looking for someone to work with their 21 year-old daughter with cerebral palsy at her yoga and dance classes. I had talked to her mom on the phone and they just seemed like such a fantastic family. I had never really considered doing this kind of work before but, as I mentioned in my previous post, something about it called to me and tugged at my heart.
I won’t go into the interview process or any more detail about this family, as respecting their privacy is extremely important to me…and I’m sure to them, as well. I will say this…I was offered the job and I was honored by their offer. And I immediately thought to myself “What have I just gotten myself into?!?” There was immediately SO much to learn and if I didn’t learn it, it’s not like it would just be a small inconvenience to another person…this other person was totally depending on me to learn it all…in a relatively short amount of time.
On my drive home I was contemplating if I had done the right thing. Then I realized what I was doing. I was second guessing an opportunity that the Universe had presented to me after I had done a great deal of asking for certain changes in my life. I was second guessing myself and my heart for being drawn to it. I was second guessing my ability to do the job.
In my car, I took a deep breath in and asked myself if this is right for me and supports me in everything I want for my life. The answer came back to me softly, like a lover whispering in my ear… “yes.” One word was all it took. Warmness spread through my veins and I immediately felt at peace. And at that moment I chose to be a woman who trusts herself, instead of a scared little girl who wants to run from uncertainties of new experiences. The fear of failure still lurks into my thoughts, a devil on my shoulder. Despite that though, I have chosen to be courageous enough to move forward into the unknown, embracing the mistakes I will inevitably make, along with the successes I will create with this amazing 21 year-old yogini as one of my teachers…
Much Love,
Kerry Anne
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