im on the edge of happy right now. i cant figure out to take the right step, to take that leap, to plunge into being happy about everything. my job is making me lazier and lazier. i enjoy doing everything when im actually doing it, but if im not doing anything i get so annoyed at being asked to do what i should be doing. i dont find things really exciting. everything i do that is slightly different reminds me of something that makes me a little more upset. i hope to see people that i never get to see. i just saw my friend who lives out in cali the other night. he went back the next morning and i really miss him so much. the next possible time i will get to see him is in june. and then r lives in effing queens and i still never see him even though he is one of my favorite people. then there are various other people that i just miss talking to. if nothing else i want to talk to you.
i need to start looking for a new job. this place is making me want to punch something. id much rather be busy all the time. the internet is only so interesting. i can only read so many web comics and blogs and rss’ before being kind of done with everything.
this weekend i am going to see phantom of the opera.
im still on the edge of happy. i want to be able to start fresh.
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