Do you ever wake up and just feel blah? Feel like no matter what you do you are just stuck?
Today that is how I have been feeling. I have been feeling like we are stuck.
Applying for jobs but no one calls. I am not sure what we are going to do when the money runs out.
I told my Middle Monkey yesterday that we probably would not be going to Disney this year. My heart was breaking when we were talking about it. I have always been so careful not to make promises because the will be ex was always one who promised we would do something and then took it away. So when I make a promise or say we are going to do something I make sure we do it. So to have to break down and tell him we won’t be going this year was heart-breaking for me.
This state is a pit-hole when it comes to jobs. There are none out there. That isn’t true there are jobs out there but we have 5000 people who are applying for 5 jobs (or so it seems). I know the numbers are not accurate but I don’t feel like looking up the stats currently. Just makes me even more frustrated. On the government’s website they had the stats that on aver people over 40 look for at least 24 months before being hired again and those over 50 look for 36 plus months. Reading that is very, very, very depressing for me.
I am trying to find the positive things currently but I am struggling with it all. My monkeys are my bright spot currently.
We go to court again on the 19th. It has almost been 3 years since this living hell started. In those 3 years so much has gone on. I have wanted to just give in so many times and yet I have not. I just keep on plugging along.
I just keep on praying that something will just fall into our laps. I am not asking for a long. I just want us to be able to make it and not worry about losing the job every day. Those are the jobs that jack in the box has had. We are always worrying about if he is going to be with a job the next day. I guess I know there is no guaranteed job these days. Around here though it is even more a fact of life than any place else. I get there is hardship everywhere it just seems like we have had more than our share though.
Today is just one of those days. Thankfully tomorrow is a new day!
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